Yep, you read that right. B is officially weaned. I remember reading a blog post a while back (sorry can’t remember where!) about how we always celebrate and make a big deal out of firsts but never even note the lasts. It is so true and I’m somewhat sad to say I couldn’t even tell you when the last time was that B nursed. It happened so gradually that I didn’t even notice.
I’m not sad that he stopped. Nor am I happy that he stopped. After nursing has been such a huge part of both of our lives for so long it was oddly anti-climactic. Basically pregnancy dried me up over the first couple of months and B slowly lost interest/gave up. For a while he “dry-nursed” but even that started becoming more and more sporadic. Then one day I realized it had been days… at least… since he had last nursed. And he never has since. (Edit: I realized this is not entirely true. He recently asked in the middle of the night and I let him regardless of our milk clock rules since I figured he really wanted/needed to. So now that I think about it I guess that was the last time, at least for now.)
I know a lot of people get super weepy and emotional around weaning but I had none of that. I don’t know if it’s because it was soooo drawn out and due to drying up or if one set of crazy pregnancy hormones just someone canceled out the crazy weaning hormones. I think mostly my reaction just mirrored B’s. Thankfully he never showed any signs of being upset or distraught, at worst he was confused and maybe a little disappointed. I think if he had a rough time with it then I would have as well, so I’m really glad that didn’t happen. Regardless, here we are and I have a whole 4 months without nursing anyone!
As for what happens when the baby comes, nothing will shock me and everything is ok. If B continues to be uninterested that’s fine, if he avidly nurses again that’s fine, or if he just wants to try it a couple of times and then moves on that’s fine too. I am sounding uncharacteristically zen lately about what’s to come with this 2nd baby which can only be explained by denial. Check back in a few months for STRESSED OUT PANIC.