I think I’ve talked a time or two about B’s sleeping habits in the past? To sum things up he’s never really been enthusiastic about resting and has always seemed to somehow skate by on the bare minimum of sleep. There was, however, one thing I could always count on. No matter how hard he fought sleep and even if he went a few days with very little, his body would eventually win and he couldn’t keep himself from passing out for a long nap or going to bed early. Even if his little brain didn’t, his body always seemed to know what he needed.
Now however? He seems to have reached a new ninja level of enlightenment where his mind is actually stronger than his body. He will do absolutely anything and everything to keep himself awake. Even the car, which was my trusty old go-to, almost never puts him to sleep anymore and I can see him consciously fighting it in the car seat mirror (which he coincidentally asked that I remove the other day.)
There has not been a nap in weeks and the fatigue is building to the point where he is forgetting how to function. Everyone always says, “Don’t give up on the naps so easily!” But I don’t know what else to do and I promise it hasn’t been easy. For months before he just quit them it was taking a good 2 hours to get him to sleep and most of that time was a battle, or if I was lucky, a negotiation of stories, songs, milk, snuggles, getting in and out of bed 10 times, and diaper changes. It got to the point where even if he did end up sleeping I was so worn out from the process that the break didn’t even feel restorative. Plus then he would end up staying up until 10 pm and not actually sleeping any more hours. Regardless, gone are those days of nap negotiation and now it’s full on tantrum level meltdown at the mere suggestion of reading stories in the afternoon, so I just don’t have the will left to fight.
Oh also, the whole Mommy-clinging thing has gotten worse not better since G got home. Now B has this primal/existential/cry-so-hard-he-can’t-breathe level fear that I’m going to leave him next and sometimes it even wakes him up at night.